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Helena Christensen
It's not something you ever think is going to happen, especially
not to someone like him. He was so very sensitive but at the
same time full of life and charisma.
I can only think what happened was one of those things where
you suffer emotionally and everything crashes in on you. You
become so enraged you want to inflict pain on yourself, the way
some people cut themselves. With Michael I think it was like,
'Oh God, I'm so sick and tired of this, I want the physical pain
to be greater than what I feel inside'. And then fate meant it
became more than that.
That's how I like looking at it anyway. He was very passionate,
very emotional, and reacted immediately if something bothered
him. I really think it was, in that sense, a mistake. With Michael,
in the beginning I couldn't even cry, because I was so confused
and angry. Then it was straight into, 'Goddamit, why?' It's so
silly. He still had so much in him. I know he didn't want to
leave his little child like that.
Five days before he died we had one of the best conversations
we'd had since we broke up. He was happy, content. He was always
so real and honest, it wasn't like he was going to pretend he
was happy if he wasn't. I'm so glad we had that conversation.
I still talk to his dad and his dad's wife. They became really
good friends with my family, and we've been to see them a lot
since. What's keeping them going is to think about all the beautiful
things about him, and to try to have some humour, if you can.
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